A Thank You

I don't know if the person this blog is aimed at reads my blog or not, but I am writing this anyway.

Last December, I had a falling out with one of my best friends. More like a sister really, and to lose her from my life has been difficult to say the least. She said somethings to me that were really hurtful, and especially the things about my child. One thing she said, however, was a great gift. She told me that I wasn't very fun anymore, and that I was grumpy all the time. At first I didn't want to hear it, but then my husband echoed the same thing, and about how I was short with our son as well. After I cried and ranted and raved I made a promise to myself, and them that I would try to see the humor in life again.

What a revelation. I cannot put into words the things this has done for me as a person, and for my family. I feel like that one change has made a world of difference for us! Ryan and I rarely fight anymore, making this 4th year of our marriage the best so far. We laugh more. I don't take the messes that Byron makes so seriously now, and usually laugh about them later. I use my stories to make other people laugh with my other blog (I Hate Pink.)

I love my life now. I feel like the weight of the world has been lifted from my shoulders!

Another thing she said was that I wasn't a very good friend. I don't believe this is a true statement, because I always make an effort to call my friends to see how they are doing or just because I'm thinking of them. Her saying that to me was a blow, and it made me probably overly cautious about my friend's feelings. But I am now perhaps more mindful of my appreciation for them. My few close friends are very important to me and I hope they know that.

To my friends and family who are reading this, I love you.

To the person that said those things to me. I will always love you as well, and I forgive you for things you said about Byron. I forgive you for being so absorbed in your bad relationship that you can't see a person that really loves you. I forgive you for not valuing my honesty. I hope that you learn to love yourself enough to demand respect. I hope that you learn that pretty
things can never replace faithfulness, and treating you like the real treasure. Thank you for telling me I was being too grumpy. That has changed my life. I hope you are well and happy.